Once

There was once a guy who spent the night at my house. He was sleeping in my bed, so I went to the couch. Since I can't sleep sometimes, I turned on the TV and flipped over to MTV. There were music videos playing. One of the songs had a line that said: "Show me what I'm looking for."

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I'm on my way to LA and all that goes through my mind are occurences I would rather forget. Memories flood my mind and I'm stuck seeing and feeling. Remember? The pain was horrendous. I'm glad I'm almost healed.

I don't know how to make anything better anymore. Am I becoming the person I promised myself I wouldn't be? When I feel like everything is going wrong, my defenses go up and I hurt people I care about before they can hurt me.