Reflections...

Because I'm the most retarded girl ever, I will tell you my reflections about this year.

I can't remember much before June. I think June was a start of a whole new me and a whole new life and stuff. Not sure. Anyway, the first part of the year was filled with good stuff from what I remember.

This year started off with me in Guatemala with one of my best friends in the whole entire world. I love him to pieces and everything felt right when I spent the first minute of 2008 with him!

I was really happy.

In August of 2007, I was asked to be part of the Thursday Night Booking crew at Gilman. We didn't book shows, but we did book community events and acoustic performances. It wasn't really my thing. Then, I got asked to do actual booking in early 2008. I think in January. I worked for a real long and hard time and finally had my first show on April 11. Blackfire canceled that show, but I didn't care because the bill was amazing. 311 people showed up that night!

Spead Trials in March was amazing too. We made tamales and the bands ruled. I was with good friends and really happy.

Extreme Noise Terror show was really fun! That was the night that some people found out that I drink. I drank with Carlos and some of his homies. That was an interesting night.

Of course, there were other big shows. There was the Pinhead Gunpowder show. Hella people and I was making fun of all the star struck fans of GreenDay that were on their nuts. Rivalry Records Showcase was fun and super funny. Those were all before June. It was fun.

Besides shows, I had met Cassondra for the first time. Little did I know that she was actually going to become one of my best friends.

Then came June and everything was a little different. The Tragedy show brought about the first time that I went into Pyramid and was able to drink a beer at the bar. Carlos and I shared a pitcher. I have since done that several times now since I've figured it out. That same night England and I were drinking everywhere. Hahaha... I was a little drunk.

The week after was my graduation from high school. That was a good weekend. Graduating with honors in English was sick. That same weekend I stayed out and ate hotdogs with England until 3am and the next night I went to Dublin to see a crappy show. I passed out in the bathroom before I got to see my friend's band and well, they couldn't find me for an hour.

The next weekend, was the MDC night. That was a cool show. I thought it was an ok show, but I also thought that hanging out with Cassondra was sick. It was the first time both of us really bonded. Best part was eating hotdogs after the show! Big things happened that night. I don't think I could ever forget it.

The Leftover Crack show was the show in which everyone was wasted except me who was drunk at the beginning and was the first one to sober up and drive people home. Yup. I don't have a license either.

The Fourth of July show I got completely wasted and missed the show because I threw up. The next day was Tidal Wave. It was super hilarious. Burritos and #2. I had to yell at some guy who kept trying to convince Cassondra to do porn that day. Then, it was the Limp Wrist show I helped book. After the show I did some stupid shit, but whatever. It was fun.

The whole summer went by in such a blur. I remember seeing Skarp and meeting cool people there. I remember at the Limp Wrist show I met tons of people. I remember so much. I remember the Ramen show with the fire works. I remember my failed show at Balazo where I lost $250. I remember the night before that. I remember late night phone calls. I remember so much and so little at the same time. I remember being picked up on Shattuck and going to the Berkeley hills. I remember the food. I remember the conversations. I remember hating people. I remember the fights. I remember everything! It was a great summer.

Then, fall came. School started. Stress started. But, I went to art exhibits and met more and more people. I got my first tattoos. I spent more and more time with my friend Marinda and met so many people at school. I made a lot of mistakes in the fall. I think I made really big ones that I am almost regretting. I try to never regret though... I sorted felt depressed and came to horrible realizations during this time. Feelings of rejection came up in me. That's no fun to experience. But, it's all part of growing up.I've become a different person. Well, not so much different, but I grew up.

I was voted into being Co-Head of Booking at Gilman. I met even more people. I went to Latino Fest. I went to so many shows. I went to see Vitamin X. I passed out and threw up in my friends car. I felt like I was going to die one night. I got bloody noses. Night time car rides were different. I had coffee with my friend almost everyday. I ate powdered donuts. I quit being vegan (part of my new year thing is to go back to being vegan. I get sick too much and it's not good for me). Celebrating Yun-yun's birthday with her is always a highlight for me!

I fucked up a lot this year, but I think the good outweigh the bad. I had a good year. Everything has changed. I used to be good friends with a few people and now they're either gone or we're drifting apart. Some of those people I don't mind being gone from my life and I don't mine drifting apart from. Others I am really sad about. I am torn that people that I felt close to at one point in my life and earlier this year are acting weird around me or we just don't talk in general. Life goes on. This was a good year and I think next year will be better! Next year will be amazing! I'm going to start it off right!

♥