All My Dreams...

So, I really want to go back to Havasu Falls. It was probably one of the most beautiful places I have ever been to. It was an amazing experience to hike 10 miles from the top of the Grand Canyon down to the campground and the falls. It was incredible. I have never been so awestruck in my life. Just the beauty that was all around me; the waterfalls in the middle of the Grand Canyon. How could anything be more perfect? What could ever achieve that level of perfection? The drinking water was disgusting, but everything else was so amazing. I want to go back. So, my plan is, next year I am going back in the summer. I have not been back in 5 years. I miss that tranquility. I miss being able to sit down and hear the water crashing onto the rocks. I miss the red dirt below my feet and the water that cooled me down during those long summer days. I miss nature. I feel like I need to get away from cars, computers, cities, and technology for awhile and just have food, a tent, water, and a book for awhile. There is nothing more calming than being by yourself in nature. It always feels like you are small and just a minuscule dot amongst greater things. I don't mean "god," but I do mean nature. There is no greater feeling than that.

I miss it. I think it clears my mind. Just thinking about it clears my mind. It makes me think past drama, the bullshit, the expectations, the preconceptions, and the "how-it-should-be's" and lets me think about reality. Reality without the scrutiny. Reality without the expectations. Reality without outsiders. It allows me to look at true reality. It makes me feel great, because then I can see what I really want without people telling me what I should want. And then, I look past what everyone wants for me and follow what I want for myself and that's how I live my life and I will never live it differently. I would rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I'm not.

I don't know how to end this blog, but...

I love life.