Eh.

• Maybe life was supposed to be this hard so that I learned how to deal with seemingly unbearable pain in order to bear that pain and grow stronger.

• I am happy again because I finally was able to admit to something that I never wanted to admit to someone or even myself hence lifting a great burden from my chest.

• I am happy again because the person that I really care about is finally happy after such a long time of being unhappy. This person's well-being and happiness means the world to me.


• I have really horrible luck... The following has happened to me:

1. Diagnosed with a disease that when I took my medicine it made my stomach hurt.
2. I got really sick. I have been sick three times in the past four months.
3. I had the worst hangover in the world a few weekends ago.
   
4. I dropped my really cool cell phone in the toilet causing it to break.
5. I bought a $48 new used phone.
   
6. I stapled my finger by accident.
7. I lost my glasses.
8. I realized that booking is super stressful.
9. I have a really interesting private life that is really kind of fucked up, but exciting.
10. I lost my $45 BART card.
11. I'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled tomorrow.

• I love all my friends with all my heart. You guys are my family.

• I am so happy to be talking to mi Luisito again. He is probably the most important person in my life. His heart is amazing and he makes me so happy. I miss him so much and I love him deeply with all my heart.

• I am now new co-head booker with Jay Unidos at Gilman! In yo face!
  

I think that despite everything that has happened, all the personal issues, the stupid shit I do with my life and EVERYTHING else, I am genuinely happy. It was the weirdest thing. I haven't smiled the way I smiled today in a long time. I realize that the people around me are too important to me and too special to me for me to act this way toward life. I may not always get what I want, but I know I have the most important thing in my life, friends.