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I kinda hate myself for putting myself into situations that bring back good memories that I feel nostalgic and somewhat embarrassed by. This is how I felt today. Sucks. I don't think I hate those places as much as I hate myself for letting the past still control my present.

At least I am looking toward the future.

So, I need to get some nerve and step out of my shell when I am around real people. Behind the screen of my computer and cellphone, I am able to say and do whatever I want. I have no fear. The minute I step into the real world, I clam up and become wary and uncomfortable with my surroundings. This is life for me. I find that the only way I can open up is if I am somewhat intoxicated or if I've known you for a while. It's worse when I like the person.

I feel bad about that too. I wanted to spend more time with this one guy before school started. Bummer that it starts tomorrow for him. Oh well.

Loves,
Alejandra