Not good enough...

It's not good enough to be this way.
I'm not good enough for most people.
I'm not a random fuck.
I refuse to be that.
But, I'm not good enough for anything more.
I'm not good enough for half the world.
I'm not a good enough daughter to my family.
I think I'm failing in life.
Family life that is.
I love them all.
They sorta love me.
I hate myself for what I've become.
But, then again, I am me and I love myself for being me.
Contradictions.

I should go back to the hole that I crawled out from to become reborn into someone stronger, beautiful, and more intelligent. I wish I was this way. Oh well. 'God' gave me the short end of the stick.

On another note, I've been listening to a bunch of PowerViolence and Grind. It is most important that everyone listen to the following seeing as how I have been listening to these bands non-stop:

1. Man is the Bastard (as always and forever)
2. Cripple Bastards
3. Discordance Axis
4. Uzi Suicide
5. Unholy Grave (as always and forever)
6. Spazz
7. Excruciating Terror
   
8. And many more....

You should listen to those basic ones. They are amazing. I'm buying a million fucking records soon. It will be amazing.

They are:

ECONOCHRIST - Another Victim 7"
ECONOCHRIST - Skewed 7"
ICONOCLAST - the first 7"
50/50 - s/t 7"
AGENTS OF SATAN - 7" (10 songs)
ARTIMUS PYLE - Fortress 7"
BLOODY PHOENIX - War, Hate & Misery LP
BRUTAL DEATH - 7"
CONGA FURY/GEORGE HARRISON - split 7"
DESOLATION - Demos 7"
DOUBLE NEGATIVE - Raw Energy 7"
ENDLESS DEMISE/SLAUGHTER OF THE INNOCENTS - split 7"
EXCRUCIATING TERROR - live at Gilman 7"
GODSTOMPER -7" (9 songs)
GODSTOMPER/BARBARIAN LORD - split 7"
GRIMPLE - Grimple 7"
HATRED SURGE/THE ENDLESS BLOCKADE - split LP
RON LUNG - Demonstrations... 7"
IRON LUNG - Life. Iron Lung. Death. LP
KYLESA - Kylesa LP
LIMP WRIST - Want Us Dead 7"
LOCUST/MELT BANANA - split 7"
MELT BANANA - 666 6"
NOISEAR/MAGNICIDE - split 7"
PHOBIA - Grind Your Fucking Head In LP
POISON IDEA - Latest Will And Testament LP
SCHOLASTIC DETH - Revenge... 7"
SCHOLASTIC DETH - Revolution... 7"
SPAZZ/LACK OF INTEREST - split 7"
SPAZZ/BRUTAL TRUTH - split 7"
SUPERBAD - s/t 7"
TOTAL ABUSE - s/t LP
TOTAL FURY - Committed To The Core 10"
UNHOLY GRAVE - Raw Slaughter 7"
UNHOLY GRAVE - Unholy Bastards 7"
WHAT HAPPENS NEXT? - 1st 7"
DECIDE ON CHANGE - comp LP
EL GUAPO - comp LP
REALITY #1 - comp 7"
REALITY #2 - comp LP


As you can tell... I'm a 7" whore. I love 7" the most.