You Down?

Dear Blogger,

Life has been a roller coaster. I don't mean in a bad way, it's just that everything goes in extremes for me. I am extremely happy with everything that is going on, but one crappy occurrence or situation makes my stomach sick. I don't feel that way now. It's just an observation.

Am I weird? Or is this the reality for everyone? I'm sure I am not alone in this. I am so passionate about a lot of things that I invest myself too much in things. I put my heart and soul into whatever I care about. Same goes for close friends. I've only been fucked over a few times.

Speaking of friends, I found out, not too long ago, that one of my childhood friends prostituted herself for money and drugs. It's weird. She was the one that almost died of alcohol poisoning in the 6th grade. It's crazy. It bums me out hella, but her mom was the one that said I was fucked up. Look who got their shit together? It still bums me out though. I remember that she used to wish she was poor. She had a pool and hot tub.

I actually was poor when I met her. My family was borderline homeless. Without my aunt living in the US, we would have been on the streets. Eh... Happens. Anyway, this girl always said how poor she was and when I went shopping with her and her mom once, my mom let me have $40 to buy "back to school clothes." This girl bought hella clothes at Abecrombie and Norstrom's. She said that we should get matching belts. I was down. Except it cost $40. I had to ask her mom for a little bit of money. I bought it and had no money to buy anything else. I still have that stupid belt. This girl stopped using it after 3 months because it went out of fashion.

I have no idea why I brought that up. I think it just describes how I was in Elementary school. I was bullied and ditched. This girl was my best friend and ditched me for the girls that bullied me because they were more popular. Bummer.

Ok, so this just ended up being a rant. Oh well. What will it hurt?
2009 is our year!

Loves,
Alejandra
"The mouth is the asshole of the brain."
Or in this case, the fingers are the asshole of the brain.