Everyday I fester and brood on how much people disgust me. I can only handle my core group of friends. They are the only ones that I can look at and not feel an ounce of disgust for.
It's not that people are bad and it's not that I don't like my friends. It's just that most everyone I meet has some annoying quality I despise. It's not their fault. It just bugs me. I hate that it bugs me.
I'm purely anti-social. I don't talk to people. I can't talk to people unless I know them, feel comfortable in my environment, or am intoxicated. It's really bad. I just don't understand why. I've become severely anti-social in the past... well, day. I've been out more times this last week than I every have in my life. I feel awkward in situations that I shouldn't feel awkward in. I want so bad not to look at the negative side of everything and hate people. I want so bad not to be quiet. I want so bad to get to know people so that I don't judge them on superficial levels.
But...
People disgust me and I sorta hate them.
*Most likely if you've read this and I know you, I probably don't hate you. I just mean with a lot of people I meet. Eh... This is going to be hard to explain to those who read it and think I hate them when in all actuality I think they are badass. Oh well. I guess I shouldn't have generalized.
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