Could've/Would've/Should've

((The realization that things just will not go my way is clear. I'm happy to have realized that. I am sad to admit to it.))

Jeez...

Everything is actually going well. How could this be? I can't wait for all these things to happen. I'm going to have a lot of fun next weekend.
Friday night is Cattle Decapitation!!!!! It's going to be amazing! I'm sure it will. I'm not the biggest fan, but I have a feeling that the show is going to be crazy! Saturday night is Iron Lung/Extortion/Lack of Interest/In Disgust/Godstomper/California Love/CARvsLOS!!!! It's going to be amazing. I cannot wait to see how the show ends up going. I'm sure it will be be amazing. I have a feeling that everything is going to go really well for that show. We are making food for the show, so that shouldn't be that bad. I can't wait actually! =) Sunday, I get to go to a photoshoot. I can't wait! I'm not having pictures taken of me, but my friend is. It's going to be really fun. I can't wait to see how Carlos does with the pictures and I can't wait to see how my friend models!

I think I am really inspired by everyone now. I really want to start collaging again. I really enjoyed doing that and now I have a brand new Exacto-Knife set! =) I'm going to buy a bunch of magazines and art books for the collage. I have so many ideas stuck in my brain. I have ideas for songs and rants and collages and writings. I think it's because I'm not stuck on my own self-pity anymore. HAHAHA! I kinda suck, if you haven't noticed already. It happens when you think too highly of yourself before someone finally checks you and you have to look at yourself for who you really are. Oh well. I'm happy for everyone now and for everything! I lot has changed for me in the last week. It's weird. I guess it's ok.

Loves,
Alejandra